27th september 2009

Im writin here again as i dunno who to turn to. Well i was in a r'ship since 17th sep juz only started 10 days ago. I met this girl who i already known for 2 years now, all this while we've been contactin each other and we do tell each other stories of our life. Tht time i didnt have any feelings for her as i only take her as a fren, but there's one day i found out tht i've fallen in love wit her and i didnt confess first as im scared becuz of my past r'ship. So i did talk to her over the phone and found out tht she actually got attracted to me since last year but she couldnt confess cuz i was with other girl.

I was so blinded by love at tht time but things juz went wrong. I was so heartbroken then and i needed support. This girl was there to chill me up when i was down eventhough there were times tht i didnt wanna bother her she will text me all of the sudden and ask how am i? wad went wrong and stuff. Lets cut it short, we fall in love with each other. We were happy, fun, like to disturb each other but deep down inside we really do love each other.

But she is not ready to tell the parents abt us yet and i ask her to take things slowly too as i dun wanna hurt her feelings wit her family. Im scared she will suffer becuz of me, i dun wan her to suffer as it will hurt me to see tht to happen. I dun mind tht shes not ready to confess to her parents but i dunno why deep down inside im havin s sad feelin followin me. Is it bcuz i really love her this time? I knw deep down inside i really want her to be wit me and stay by my side as long as we can go on.

I've been prayin alot for us to get the blessings from her parents and also frenz. Things r find wit me and my parents but i dun wan anythin to happen to her and her parents. Wad shud we do to make all those things to work? Wad steps shud we do to get to be with each other?? Yeah i knw frenz will ask me to becareful and all. I juz wanna follow wad my heart ask me to do. Maybe things will be better or it might be worse. No matter wad it is nvr try nvr knw wad is the result.

In our heart we really wanna be wit each other, we really need ur supports and blessings. Pray for us, for tht day to come. Pray for her parents to accept me and accept us for who we are as we really love each other......