the time is runnin low

I'm sorry but i admit...this time i really fall in love wit u. I dunno wad makes it feels so strong but i knw my heart very well. I knw ppl been tellin u alot of bad things abt me, they even ask u dun trust me. But thank u for trustin me bcuz i am really not those type of person whom they said i am. I hope i prove to u well.

For me to give up is not an easy thing. But i really dun wish to see u bein sad and sufferin anymore. I admit im very sad and i cant give up, but to think properly i prefer sacrifyin myself also i dun wanna see u bein so miserable bcuz u have to choose. I knw u cant do it so i have to make the decision for u. I knw i said to u before no matter wad decision i make for u, u also cannot be angry,sad,cry or regret....bcuz i choose to let go actually. I knw u cried alot and i hurt u as well.

Pls dun ask me not to treat u good cuz i cant do it. I wish i can be the one who can love u,be there for u,care for u,share all ur happiness and sorrows. I really wish i could be the one. We agreed tht we will end things up on this friday but i really couldnt let go. I really cant, i'm so sad and weak rite now cuz i knw tht my heart choose to be wit u. I tried so hard to hold back my feelins for u but i failed. I knw ure attached but i rather take the risk bcuz im fallin in love wit u deeply.

Today is already a thursday, another day for us to be tgt and then everythin have to end up. I have to act strong in front of u cuz i dun wan u to be worried abt me. Bein wit u, shared my times wit u is the happiest moment i ever had after everythin. I never regret....im serious...i treasured it alot. While writtin this blog im listenin to ur favourite song...i cant hold back my tears anymore. Pls give me the strength to move on....i hope u can show me a happy face when we end things up on friday(eventhough i knw u will cry)

With tht i really love u wit all my heart, care for u wit all my soul. Shit, i knw when i wake up later my eyes will be swollen up. I dun wanna break down again in front of everyone. So this time im gonna be stronger. May god blesses u.....

Love,
Joel fitzroy phang