Relief

Today i was tired, been not havin enuf sleep and i have to take care of my salon...somethin like im incharge when my boss is not ard. I was left wit 2 juniors, customers today like bullyin me only. Like they know im tired but yet they wan me to cut their hair, wan me to blow their hair. I was pretty exhausted but anyway i stayed smsin my gf the whole day.

I feel kinda happy tht we did talk to each other today eventhough we r not interactin over the phone but still we r smsin each other. No matter how exhausted i am also it doesnt matter cuz i still have her bein my battery. Hehehe sorry girl im callin u my battery.

Anyway when finish work tht time i really wanted to go home and juz rest or maybe sleep until the next day but my heart is tellin me NO cuz i wanted to see my gf so much so i stayed awake. I missed her so much, when she got online tht time we chatted wit each other...wit our webcam on. I feel so happy and calm and not exhausted once i saw her face. I feel like my energy is rechargin when i was talkin to her.

We chatted for few hours then my fren called me out for hang out session, i feel kinda guilty for leavin me gf behind and go out wit frenz. We already dun get to see each other often when the time is there for us to spend time together i actually decided to go out wit my frenz cuz its been a long time i nvr see her. Anyway the guilty feelin is still followin me, to make me feel better i still sms her and we chatted again. Eventhough she says its ok, i shud go out and have fun wit my frenz but deep down inside i knw she will miss me alot and there's alot of things she wanna tell me and talk to me.

I feel relief when i gotta knw tht my frenz started likin her already eventhough they haven meet wit each other. This gf of mine really cares for me and also my frenz. She would ask them how r they and will ask me to stay by their side when they needed someone. She is so special and i feel so lucky tht i found her. Thank god for sendin her into my life and brighten up my days again. Its been a while u knw, since i fell into a deep and dark hole where im tryin so hard to try to climb up but i fail. She came into my life and help me to climb up, she is the angel who were sent from god to help me thru all those feelings tht im feelin and she's fillin up the hole in my heart. She let me knw wads the feelin of bein loved again, she gave me the feelin of happiness, bein cared, bein missed and bein important.

How i miss those feelings after the previous one. All my frenz feels happy tht i can actually moved on and found someone so special to me. I dunno whether we were destine together or not but as far as i know both of us is doin our best to keep each other side by side. Its very rare to find someone tht u love who actually understands u and have so many similiarities wit u. When u found someone like tht please be sure to appreciate them. This is wad im doin.....

Baby i hope we can go thru this yeah. Missin u so much

worried

Now is 2.16am, i think she's sleepin soundly already. I cant really sleep cuz im worryin abt wads gonna happen to us. Im happy i found her....really, someone who help me thru all my sad days..i mean listen to me whenever im down. Help me to climb up again. She is really special, she can make me feel very very calm whenever i talk to her. But sometimes she can be a pain in the arse as well...juz by the way she talks to me.

Earlier today, she told me somethin tht i dun feel happy after hearin it...i was so worried til now also i cant get to sleep...some more i juz came back from sendin my fren Jannat to the hospital. She is so sick til she got no strength to talk to me also. Before i went out to get Jannat i was at home onlinin waitin for her to come online. She didnt yet she sent me a msg sayin tht she will online soon....then i waited again but i couldnt already...really need to go help Jannat.

This is the first time she didnt come online after sendin me a text sayin tht she's comin online. I was kinda sad but wad can i do. I dunno why nowadays she keeps on bein sick im really worried abt her. Wanna call her now but i scared ill bother her sleep.... but if i dun hear her voice i feel like somethin is missin in my life. Wad shud i do??

Wad can i do to really keep our r'ship goes on? She told me she only wants me and i felt the same way as well.... our journey isnt easy to travel...i hope ill get all the supports and blessings from all of u......bless us so tht we can be happy together....